Thursday, August 23, 2012

Just A Thought

I typed this out yesterday and like a lot of posts it was saved as a draft, most likely never to be read. I don’t know if something like this would be well received by you. So I tend to keep it to myself. Today I though of my blog buddy Nicki at The Loaded Handbag and I decided to hit publish. Not for her, not for you, but for me. If I took the time to write these words as they poured through my fingers than I should be able to hit publish. And so I did…
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I'm staring at this blinking cursor and I don't know what to write. Lately I feel as if my blog has gotten stuck in mud.

I want to say something but I constantly am met with the thought of, "I have nothing to say". It's kind of sad.

I have things going on in my life but not necessarily things large enough for a post. I hate the feeling of posting the same events over and over. I mean, let's be honest, how many times can I post about school or my niece (forever!) before I'm repeating myself?

My point is, I don't want to bore you. I want to give you something worth reading. Something that generates comments. If it means I gain new followers, so be it, but I think it's more important to keep the ones I have.

I've said time and again that I don't like to get all "Dear Diary..." on you guys, and that hasn't changed. But I think, just maybe, my blog needs to change. Or that I do.

I liked posting 3x a week before. But since my sister, summer laziness and my overwhelming bookshelf, I've taken a break from this space. I didn't know how to keep it the same. To be the person I was before. And maybe that's where I went wrong. Maybe I was trying to block change. My whole life changed but my blog was something I had control of. I could keep it the same and could shelter it and it would be as I knew it. A safety net of predictability.

Ordinarily, I'm not one who shuns change. I usually embrace and enjoy it. I look forward to it. But for some reason, with my blog, I didn't want to change. Maybe I was afraid that if my blog changed you would stop reading, stop commenting. But change is good. It means new opportunities. New chances. New posts. New readers.

And for that reason, I'm changing. We're changing. I won't post on a schedule any more. When something is going on, I'll write about it. Even if it's a picture, or a single paragraph, I'll post it. My life is at a crossroads right now. Like I said, there are things going on. But to repeat post on the same topics will make me, and I'm sure you, crazy.

So I ask that you bare with me. Ride out this wave with me and see where it takes us. It's probably going to be messy at first, or for a while. Hell, when I started this I was supposed to be writing a post for Friday and the weekend coming up. Look where that went... But I can promise I will continue to put finger to key and type.

I will say something.  

5 comments :

  1. This happens to the best of us. Hell, after writing a blog for almost 2 years, we always find ourselves asking, well, what now? What haven't we talked about? Are we going to run out of ideas? You're doing the right thing, though. Just give it some time, and before you know it, you'll be back on track.

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  2. I applaud this new approach, and although I enjoy your words, I will wait patiently for the next post and be here to comment when it comes. On YOUR time.
    I am in the middle of some sort of change as well. Like a complete overhaul. New URL, new approach, new identity, the whole show! I'm overwhelmed by the prospect but excited at the same time. It will come...eventually!

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  3. yes- post everything you write- this is YOUR blog.

    oh, and talking about the same things all the time? girrrrrrl, how many of my posts are THE SAME complaints about The Prince?

    Yeah, that's what I thought. I hear you loud and clear.

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  4. YES. EVERYTHING. YES. THIS.

    But especially this:

    "Ordinarily,
    I'm not one who shuns change. I usually embrace and enjoy it. I look
    forward to it. But for some reason, with my blog, I didn't want to
    change. Maybe I was afraid that if my blog changed you would stop
    reading, stop commenting. But change is good. It means new
    opportunities. New chances. New posts. New readers. "

    I totally feel this. Every day. I'm different. I'm different than when I started my little tequila-and-Muppet obsessed corner of the blogosphere. And yeah, I might lose readers, because I'm not posting the way I used to. And I worry about that. But I really, really love how this post shook me by the shoulders and made me wake up. PEOPLE CHANGE. People grow apart. And people can grow apart from my blog, or change, and I don't have to feel pressured to fit into the mold of who I was.

    Shit. This post....christ, I'm reading it so late...but this post...I feel like so much pressure about What I Should Do has been lifted. My blog can totally grow into something different. *I'm* something different. I can either tell the truth and write the way I want to, or I can lie to fit the mold of something I started 2+ years ago.

    Thank you. I seriously....I seriously needed this.





    And your writing in it? Goddamn beautiful.

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  5. This comment means the world to me.

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