April 30, 2013

Who I Am

Last month I met a new blog friend and she wrote the most beautiful post I have read in a very long time. Seriously, if you haven't seen it I urge you to go read it and tell me you don't feel inspired in some way.

 I felt the need to try to identify who I am. Sure I'm a sister, daughter, girlfriend, student, etc. but who is this girl with the crazy, tragic and yet, almost magic life? Do I really know her?
I'd like to think I do.

Like Setarra mentioned, there comes a point in friendships when we all ask the question:
What was your first impression of me?

For me, the general consensus is bitch.
And you know what? I'm okay with that. I own it.
It doesn't mean that's who I am. Once people get to know me their opinion changes.
Others say I'm intimidating, hilarious, funny, or that they love my hair.

I think I'm too immature for my own good.
I would be perfectly happy to stay home and watch Disney movies ad Looney Tunes all day. Swinging at the park all day... living in Toys R Us... Why can't this be real life

I want to drop out of school... again.
But I won't. I've come too far and I'm too stubborn to do it a second time.
December 2014... I'm comin' for ya!

I think being a stripper is a much better idea
I see nothing wrong with it. Dancing + money = BALLIN'! Just keep business from pleasure and keep your nose clean.
I want to be single for the rest of my life
As much as I can be a people person, I think I'm equally a loner. I absolutely LOVE my me-time. But then I remember that some things are just better when shared with someone else.

I really am bitchy
There are some days I just can't deal with the lack of common sense that people have. These are days I should probably just stay home.

I want to skip work and enjoy whatever the day may bring
I don't know when it happened but I hate working. Although, if I won the lottery, I'd still work. There's a BIG difference between wanting to work and having to work.

I am grateful for something
I may not always say or show it but I am always grateful for what I have.

I wish it were summer and when it is, I wish time would just stop
I live for summer. I know a lot of us say this, but I really do. If the days are too cloudy or rainy for too long you'll see a drastic change in my moods.

I want to move
I get so restless. I always want to be on the go. Maybe it's my Sagg nature but I get bored in one spot.

I am afraid of failure
Just like everyone else I'm guilty of getting caught up in the "supposed to" thoughts. I was supposed to graduate college in 2006. I was supposed to have a career by now. I was supposed to.... I need to constantly remind myself that I'm where I'm "supposed to" be.

I am laughing
I love to laugh. Whether it's cry-worthy, pee-worthy or inappropriate, you'll find me laughing. It's the best cure for whatever ails you.


So who am I?

 I'm flawed and I make mistakes. But I always try. I do good deeds when I can and where I'm able. I appreciate the people and things in my life. I am a partier and a home-body. I'm a realist and a dreamer; a go-getter and a procrastinator. 
I'm me.
Do you know who you are?

April 12, 2013

A Year of Firsts

On April 14, 2012, my life was forever changed. 

This little nugget was brought into my life.

 This weekend we will celebrate her 1st birthday. The past 365 days have been a whirlwind roller coaster of pain, heartbreak, tears, joy, smiles, and laughter. Today, some of the brighter moments...

We had our first swimming lesson together.

We made our first trip to NYC

We went to the spa.

Attended our first concert...

...and probably offended some people.

We dressed up for Halloween...

and went to the pumpkin farm.

We discovered makeup

We learned how to open presents...

...to play with the ornaments.

.... and wear the latest seasonal fashions

... and had a photo shoot in the living room

That little girl is the absolute pride and joy of my life. I will take care of her as though she were my own. I will be her confidant and partner in crime. I will be her friend and mentor. I will be whatever she needs me to be. 

After all, I'm the Aunt.