Sunday, December 22, 2013

Upside Down

You know what's upsetting? When life completely pulls the rug out from under you. Here you are going along thinking things are relatively good. And then the universe decides to fuck you.

There are some people who aren't supposed to hurt you. Parents, boyfriends, best friends, siblings... but then they do and you're left holding these weird shaped puzzle pieces of life. You're not sure where they go and they certainly weren't part of the original picture. Yet there they are and you need to put them somewhere.

I hate puzzles. I've never been good at them and all they do is frustrate me. Ironically enough I'm usually pretty good with the puzzles of life. That's not to say I have it all figured out, because Lord knows I don't, but for the most part, I can make the pieces fit and if you look long enough the picture they form starts to make sense. 

Now my picture is a mess. I should already know where these pieces go, but I don't. I knew they were in the box, but I kept pushing them away, willing them not to be part of the picture. Yet here they are, staring me in the face and I really don't know what to do with them. This isn't the picture I asked for. This isn't the way it was supposed to look.


  1. :( whatever it is, i hope it all works out in the end.

    life's puzzles are ever-changing and sometimes they may not fit right away, but somehow, someday, you will manage to make them fit YOUR way.


    Vodka and Soda

  2. I hate puzzles and sometimes the puzzle of life can be the worst. I think we do tend to push the hard pieces aside while working with what looks easy but in the end we always have to work through the hard pieces too.

    I hope your puzzle turns out beautiful in the end!

  3. Gotta love life huh? Always throwing some monkey wrenches around like it's dollar bills at a strip club.

    But, if it weren't for those wrenches, we would be who we are today.

    Whatever it is, you will figure it out. May take some time, but it will be complete.


  4. Im so excited for tmrw! i have everything wrapped and ready to go! i hope you have a great holidays!