Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Food Sucks

There are a quite a few things that I’m not good at. We all know math will always be at the forefront of that list, but there are other everyday things I suck at as well. Right now, food is the other life fail I’m experiencing.
I have done the Weight Watchers program several times. Back in 2009 I lost a shitton of weight and was the “slimmest” I’ve been in my adult life. Since then I’ve +/-  5-8 lbs and was relatively okay with it. Currently, I’m NOT happy about the number on the scale. It's only a number, but I don't feel good anymore.
It’s even more irritating because I do go to the gym 3x a week and I do go for walks the other 4 days. Basically, I get in a minimum of 30 minutes of activity every damn day. And yet the scale isn’t moving. It’s not like it’s some worldly mystery either. I suck at food.
Granted, I love food. Like, a lot. All different types, flavors, styles. It's both fun and comforting. And cooking is one of my favorite things. But lately, it’s also become my enemy. A friend I no longer recognize. Food and I are having a fight. And if we’re keeping score, it’s winning.
My portions are what kill me. If something is delicious, I want seconds. Even before I’ve finished the initial plate, I’ve already made up my mind to have seconds. What???  
Mind you, there are days I eat like a health rock star. Wholesome breakfast, well-timed healthy snack, smart lunch, fueling afternoon snack, sensible dinner, light “dessert” snack. And then there are days where this is my afternoon snack…
No one ever said that losing weight was easy. And I’m pretty sure if someone ever did say that, all us who know how real the struggle is would beat them into unconsciousness. The thing is, right now, my struggle is really real. I’m having the most difficult time I’ve ever had. I’ve considered doing Nutrisystem, Medifast, the Dr. Oz plan…. But I haven’t pulled the trigger. I think I've passed on jumping in because I know those are quick {expensive} fixes. Sure I’ll lose a ton of weight quickly – I’m basically only eating enough calories to not pass out. But I think the real reason is that I know what I should be doing, the types of foods I should be eating, and yet it’s still a struggle.  Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy salad, but I love a burger more.
So here I am, putting it out into the universe. Because that's what blogging is for right?

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